Haha, you can call me great all you want, but YOU'RE the one who scouted ME. :P
I try to help you out when I can because I went through all the stuff that you're going through right now. Being too rough on myself, being overly analytical, finding reasons to think of myself being lazy...you name it.
What I didn't realize that despite whatever that jackass in my brain was going on about and telling me how much I sucked, I kept going and my plans stayed in motion. Drawings came out and applications to school got sent out and eventually accepted. Every prophecy of failure my mind tried to bring me down with was proven false and I realize that such thinking helped me in no way whatsoever.
The jerk in your head never leaves. He's a heckler in the back row shouting out random nonsense that has no basis in reality. The further you go as an artist or anything else in life, you simply learn to ignore him, or in my case heckle back.
That's right, I self-roast my own thought patterns like a comedian on stage dealing with a heckler. :P
Eventually you'll get your energy back and you gravitate towards your own stuff again, I guarantee it. So keep fighting the good fight and you'll find that creative spark when you least expect it.
Take 'er easy mate. :P
Syrupmasterz
(Smacks you upside the head: Respectfully)
YOU'RE A GOOD ARTIST YA DINGUS! Take a look at your Worms drawings, they've got amazing character expressions and life to them.
You're in school, OF COURSE you're gonna have low energy. :P
At VFS my friends kept crashing on the school couch, coffee cups all over the floor as a result of the exhaustion of meeting their deadlines.
The reason you are so tired, is because YOU have been working so hard educating yourself constantly on how to become a better artist by doing the school homework and your own personal learning, which is why you can barely bring yourself to draw when you get home.
Personal drawings unfortunately take a backseat due to the backlog of assignments, which leads to boredom or lack of enthusiasm.
Been there done that. But hey! Souls grow back. :P
The trick is to find a way to do assignments with your own charm, so even if there is limited space or strict requirements you can still have fun with it.
And hey? Sketchbooks don't have to be full, that's why when one gets filled up you buy a new one. So you can draw more stuff. haha
Good luck with your internship and good luck beating up that voice in your head that says you suck. (Spoiler alert, you don't)
DoodlingHitman
Mate, you're the best! You've been extremely supportive towards me and I honestly can't thank you enough for that!
I want to say that I am not going to be talking down all the time. I will try even harder throughout 2018! I want to share more creations and quit talking myself down. I don't want to have to put my fans in that spot where they always need to cheer me up. I want to change that and I shall try my best!
I really appreciate all the kind words and all the motivation you have given me. One of the reasons why I want to succeed even more, not to disappoint great people such as yourself!
Thank you once more, and I shall make sure to repay it back by creating fun shit! Be it Worms, stickmen, my own characters, NSFW or something entirely different. :D
Have a fantastic new years eve, Syrupmasterz!